Deployment update

Our second oldest son, CASEY, is in Iraq with the 82nd Airborne. They left the first of Dec., yes, one week after his brother arrived back he was sent off... (I'm never going to forget that feeling) ANYWAY~ Each day is the same for me.. Out of bed, visit the bathroom, check email, go to CNN.com, check Instant messanger to see if he's online, then off to the shower.. Some people tell me, "to avoid the news" just don't listen. But for me, that won't work, I'm a real thinker. Not really a worrier. If there is worry, I tell others. I know that the job our son's have chose is what they were called to do. That doesn't WORRY me, I just like updates~
Yes, I know that they are busy, that I'm extremely lucky to be able to even be able to have internet. I'm not sure how parents waited for months for a letter in the mail. Often times it was not the news they had hoped for. I can get information with in a couple hours of the issue.
Today it was the wonder of yet more news of another attack in Baghdad. Many were killed and even more injured. Just the thought of that is enough to make anyone worry.. But to know that your son and many others are there, close or not is just a crazy feeling. Worry isn't even fitting for the feeling that I get. The pit of my stomach drops and my heart skips about 3 beats at a time. This was the same feelings that I had the first year with the first son's deployment. Nothing, about it will make me better until I know that for this day, my son is o.k.
It all stops for a bit, when someone in the family says, "I chatted with Casey today, he's good" or I get an Instant message on my computer that says, "Hey it's me, we are all fine"...
My heart is back to the regular pattern and I will wait again for tomorrow to hear, that he's o.k. again~

GOD BLESS ALL THE SOLDIERS THAT PROTECT US!
THANK YOU~